Julia, even before drawing a breath on earth you have impacted our lives and the lives of so many others. I remember the moment that God said to me that it was time to have another child. I told your mommy this and this made her quite happy. Really I think your mom was growing a little impatient with me, but she knew that I would not move until I heard from God.
I remember the day that your mom and I were at your Papa and Gigi’s house. Mommy suspected something was up and decided to do her normal “I need to run to the store to get something”. She came back with a pregnancy test and there in the bathroom, your mommy and I saw for the first time that you were being formed. Your mommy was pregnant. I think initially I was shocked and your mommy was ecstatic. How excited we were to be parents again!
The time came to tell your brother Jared and sister Louren the big news…that there was a little one on the way and that they were going to be big brother and big sister. How excited Jared and Louren were, knowing you were on the way. Your brother and sister were so excited about you, that the arguments immediately began about whose room you would be sleeping in. We made Jared and Louren promise not to say anything because we wanted to be creative in how we announced to the family that you were on the way.
The night came that we made some random excuse to get everyone on Skype. We patiently waited as everyone signed in and we just simply started talking. It was then that we had your brother and sister, tell the news. At the count of three Jared and Louren held up the pregnancy tests and yelled out, “We’re having a baby!” That was such an exciting night filled with lots of laughter.
Of course mommy had many doctor’s visits to make sure everything was progressing, as it should. Your brother and sister were always with mommy on these visits. I would go to as many as I could. I especially made it a point to be at every ultrasound appointment. Those were your mommy, daddy and siblings favorite visits. The very first ultrasound the technician must have liked us…she gave us quite a few image shots of you. There you were…our little peanut.
The months progressed and mommy was getting bigger and was beginning to feel your flutters. We all began talking to you while you grew inside mommy. This was something that mommy and daddy started with your brother and then it progressed down to your sister and then to you. It was such a joy to hear your brother and sister giggle when they did this.
Mommy, daddy, brother and sister could not wait for the day that we would find out if you were a boy or girl. The day arrived. I took the day off from work and we had the entire day planned out. Again, your mommy and I wanted to be a little creative with how we planned this day and how we would tell of the news of you being a boy or a girl.
We made our trip to St. Petersburg, Florida to meet with a specialist at All Children’s Hospital. They would be the one’s performing special ultrasounds due to mommy being considered high risk. Before Carla, your ultrasound technician started the process we told her that we did not want to know what you were because of the special day we had planned. We simply asked her to write down boy or girl and seal it in an envelope. She got to the point in the ultrasound and told us to close our eyes or look away…you see daddy, brother and sister had our own monitor that we could watch. We left the office that day with many more images of you. We had pictures of feet, hands, head, belly, legs and arms. Most importantly we had the image and writing of what you were going to be.
We drove to Fort DeSoto beach directly after that visit, but stopped at a store to get balloons. The balloons were going to be part of what would tell mommy, daddy, brother and sister what you were going to be. We went to the store attendant and asked her to open the envelope and to fill up color specific balloons based on what was inside. We let her know that we would be next door and would be back to pick up the balloons. Oh, the balloons were in a dark bag so that we would not be able to guess what you were while on our way to the beach. However, the excitement was pretty big and all of us had our guesses.
We picked up our balloons as the store attendant told us congratulations with a big smile on her face. You impacted her life that day because she never had anyone request her to do something like this before and she thanked your mommy and daddy for including her in on this special day.
We arrived at the beach and picked out our spot. It was very windy that day, but the show was going on. We struggled with the bag as the wind blew it around, but finally your brother and sister grabbed one end, your mom had the other end and I had my cell phone, recording the entire thing. Your mommy had a grin on her face and revealed that she had seen the tip of one of the balloons as she was getting them ready to pull out. So she already knew. No fair! On the count of three, Jared and Louren pulled the bag away, mommy had the strings in her hand and out came the color pink! We were having another baby girl. We were all excited to know that you were a girl, but Louren was especially excited!
Before we left the beach I drew a big heart in the sand and wrote in the center “BABY GIRL”. This brought a smile to all of our faces and drew more giggles from mommy, daddy, brother and sister. We took a picture on daddy’s cell phone and then sent that picture out to the entire family immediately to tell them you were a girl. They had been waiting all day to find out as well.
Now plans had started as to what your colors would be. I had grown fond of Pink and Black lately and your mommy was beginning to like this as well. There were lots of little girl things in pink and black. We began to fall in love with many things and were so excited to be planning for all the items we would need for you once we brought you home.
We still needed a name for you. This was not proving to be an easy task. Mommy and Daddy wanted something special for you! We decided that we wanted to include family and friends with the naming process so we placed a status update on Facebook asking for suggestions. We had hundreds of suggestions, but mommy and daddy were being very picky.
Then the day came that we will never forget, we were given the news that your heart had stopped beating. That was a Friday. Mommy and Daddy and your entire family and friends of the family were not giving up hope. We will never know how many people were praying for you, but it was in the hundreds. Mommy kept talking about the name Julia, and your brother and sister declared that needed to be your name. I agreed and that weekend we gave you what we felt was already your name…Julia.
Throughout the course of that weekend, we went through many tests and finally made an appointment to go back to All Children’s Hospital that following Monday. Carla, the ultrasound technician that told us what your were going to be a few months before, did the same images as before and with tears in her eyes she told me, your mommy, and your Papa and Gigi that your heart had indeed stopped beating. We drove home that day in complete silence.
As we faced this news with all ranges of emotions and questions, we did not let our faith grow weak. Just a few short days later, your mommy went through labor and delivery and we met you for the first time at 1:42 pm on November 17, 2011. Mommy held you, daddy held you and so did Papa and Gigi. You were so small. Knowing that you would not be coming home with us was one of the hardest things mommy and daddy have ever faced, but we know that this is not our last time meeting you. We will see you again Julia Katae Howell when we are reunited with you in heaven. Until then, know that mommy, daddy, your brother Jared and your sister Louren will always love you and that you have made an eternal impact on our lives and on the lives of your extended family and our friends. You will forever be in our hearts.
Julia Katae Howell is survived by her parents, Rev. Mark Anthony Howell and Rev. Kelli Lyn Howell, her brother Jared Quinn Howell and her sister Louren Alyse Howell. Paternal Grandparents Lloyd Beuford Howell and Betty Joe Howell. Maternal Grandparents Rev. James Robert Pickens and Rev. Patricia Ann Pickens. Her uncles J.J. Pickens, Adam Kyle Pickens and Terry Hamrick. Her aunts Keri Lynn Hamrick and Melissa Pickens.
We would like to invite all of our family and friends to a memorial service to honor Julia Katae Howell. The service will be held at House of Faith 15225 US Hwy 19 Hudson, FL 34667 this Sunday, November 27, 2011 @ 3P.M. To honor the memory of our precious baby girl, we will be wearing black and pink which were the colors we fell in love with while choosing a baby theme. You are welcome to wear those same colors in her honor.
Veterans Funeral Care, Tampa Bay, in charge of arrangements.
Mark & Kelli, Kim and I are heartbroken as parents to have to walk thru this part of life with you. What a beautiful love letter to Julia. Please let us know if you need anything.
As Julia’s Papa, I am so sad that I never got to know her. However, she has impacted Gigi’s & my life, for which we give thanks. One day, we’ll be able to know her for she lives eternally. Mark, Kelli, Jared and Louren, I commend you for your dependence upon the Lord during this time. Love and blessings! – Dad
Mark & Kelli: I am so touched by this letter and all of the details. What incredible parents you are. God has blessed you in so many ways and will carry you through this very difficult journey. My heart breaks for you as I recall the funeral of our baby girl. It was such a difficult time, but although it is near impossible to accept the loss of your precious Julia, know that one day you will feel normal again and one day you will see her alive and well in heaven with our Father.
Mark, Kelli, Jared & Louren, My heart breaks for you All that are going through such a hard time. I cannot even begin to imagine or understand the pain you must All feel. I do know from reading this letter, that Julia was greatly Loved by so many!!!!
Mark & Kelli… I am here for YOU if you should need anything. Your in my prayers always.
Much Love from your Aunt Leota
Mark & Kelli,
Gary & I know what you are going thru. We too had a baby girl “Crystal Gwen Rozkowski” in 1984, with lovely raven black hair like her Daddy, she was 8 months old.
We too know the look on the nurses faces that were so solemn wondering how to tell us that Crystal was in Heaven.
I had the most wonderful vision and saw our baby girl waving and saying “Hi Mommy” can’t wait to see you some day.
Our love & prayers are with the entire family.
Love in Jesus, Lora
As Kelli said to me there are no words that i can say that will take that pain away just know that if you need to vent you know my number and my ear is ALWAYS available even for Louren and Jared. God Blwes you all i love ya.
Mark & Kelli,
What a beautiful obituary and tribute to Miss Julia. I will continue to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. Your deep faith is an inspring one and I know that faith will keep you firm in your love for Him and each other. One day you will all be together again with Julia as you know and what a wonderful time that will be.
Love and Blessings,
Holly
How beautiful. With tear filled eyes I read Julia’s story. What a hope we have, what a Father we have, knowing that He is holding you, your little girl, and all of us in His arms of love.
Kelli and Mark,
What a touching letter and tribute to Julia. My heart aches for you both. Please know that you are in my prayers. Hugs to the both of you. Shandelle
What a touching tribute. Every life is unique and Julia is no exception. May you feel comfort from our Saviour knowing that she is safe in His arms. May you feel strength you didn’t know you had as you go through the mourning process. Take care and may the Lord bless you and your entire family.
Dear Mark and Kelli & Family,
Our hearts cry for you and your loss. But, I know that God will cherish Julia and take care of her until you are all reunited once again. We will pray for you and for your peace. God Bless the Howell Family.
Mark & Kelli what a beautiful letter to Julia.
You are in my prayers. Please call me if I can be of any assistance.
Dear Mark, Kelli,Jared and Louren,
Our love and prayers are with you during this time and we know that it is only a temporary separation. The Lord knows all and is still in charge!!!
Praise His name.
In Christian love
Gail and family
we will continue to pray for your whole family. there was so much love in julia’s letter. we were in tears reading it. julia will be waiting for you in heaven.
What a beautiful story of Julia’s life. Mark and Kelli, Jared and Louren, we love you and praise God for the strength He is giving you right now. Dad and I are grateful for the opportunity to have held Julia in our arms. How special is that? We will celebrate her this Sunday. Love, Mom (Gigi)
Mark And Kelli, Thank you for letting us be part of Julia’s life and sharing your story with us. I know her and our little boy Joshua are probably playing together right now in heaven. Praying for you and your family. What a lucky little girl to have two wonderful parents with such faith and love for her.If you need anything I am only an email away.
Mark & Kelli, We are so sorry for your loss. What a wonderful memorial. Our continued prayers go forth for you and all of your family.
So sorry for your loss — heaven’s gain. Julia certainly made an impact on this earth without even being born. Praying for your peace and healing.
Julia, I’m sad I never got to meet you, but I will someday. You’ll be waiting for all of us in Jesus arms. Lucky for you, you never had to suffer the pains of his life, but now mom and dad carry some pain for the loss of not getting to be with you. They will be ok though because tehy know Jesus too and He will turn that mourning into unspeakable joy, though our little minds don’t know how he does it, He will. There is a time for mourning and a time for rejoicing. To all things there is a season and though your season was short, your impact was great in the lives of your family and loved ones. Now mommy and daddy, Jared and Louren have a new ministry opportunity to minister to others who will miss their family members.
God’s plans are not our plans because we would want you here with us. Sometimes it hard for us to let our own plans go so God can do even greater things than what we could ever have planned. Rest well my sweet Julia.
Mark & Kelli, My heart is aching for you as you walk through this time. I am praying for you and I know that our Heavenly Father is bringing you peace that passes all understanding. He holds you in His hands and the Holy Spirit comforts you now. Love you, Sharon
Mark and Kelli, I am so touched by this letter of Julia’s life and the impact she has made on so many lives. My prayers go out to you and your family. It is your Faith and strength knowing that God walks with you every step of the way…He is an awesome God!
Little Julia–your journey on Earth was so short, but you touched so many lives, just by their reaching out and praying for you, and now you rest with Jesus. I know we will meet you someday in Heaven, and that you are safe and warm until all of us get there. Your mommy and daddy are sad right now–it’s hard to understand how an event that would have brought such great joy has brought such great grief, but the healing love of Christ will bring everyone through, and you will see your family someday. God bless you sweet little girl. Mark, that was a beautiful love letter to your precious daughter. If God has it for you, I pray another child comes your way, even though he or she could never be Julia. May God completely heal you and your family. Shannon
Mark and Kelli, What a beautiful letter to your angel of a daughter. Know that you have a very special angel in Heaven watching over you and your family. Parents should never have to experience the heartbreak that you have had to endure. God had a reason for giving Julia to you, knowing you would love her even without ever getting to take her home with you. He has much bigger plans for her in His home, until you meet her again. God Bless and keep the faith.
Mark & Kelli: What a beautiful letter to your daughter Julia. My eyes filled with tears as I read the loving words from your heart. May God watch over you and your family.
Mark and Kelli,
I pray the Holy Spirit comfort you now and in the days to come. I know you will see little Julia in perfect body in Heaven. God be with you give you strength.
With Love,
Kimberly
To: Mark, Kelli, Jared & Louren. In just a few words, I would like to say… That the Both of You have my deepest sympathy. Both of You are Incredible Parent’s and a Loving family!!
When you said on your facebook page … that it was the hardest thing you ever had to write. For me, this letter is the hardest thing I’ve had to write. This letter is for our Precious Julia K. Howell.
It was so hard for me to tell Leota over the phone, that I had to write it down on paper and mail it to her. So In this song that I have requested to be put on facebook by Leota, will explain how I’m feeling about my Granddaughter, Julia. I will see her in Heaven one day.
In closing, I’ll say, “I’ll go to my grave loving our angel, Julia.”
God speed to you Mark, Kelli, Jared & Louren! Keep the Faith, and thanks for sharing this with with your Mother.
Closed with ALL my Love! I will keep praying for entire family. Please keep in touch!!
Love to you ALL!
Your Mom
Mark & Kelli: I’m so sorry for your loss….what a beautiful & touching letter to your daughter Julia. My eyes filled with tears and my heart with great sadness for you as I read the loving words. You and your family are in my prayers.
Mark and Kelli,
What a beautiful letter to your daughter, Julia. You both have picked a beautiful name. I am sorry for your loss, but it is good that your faith is strong. May God continue to give you peace and comfort. My prayers are with your family.
Eric
Such a beautifully written story for precious Julia. My heart aches with you. I’m so very sorry for your loss. Sending prayers and my deepest sympathies.
Mark, Kelli, Jared and Louren,
My heart breaks for you, as I wish so much that you didn’t have to be facing such a day. However, as you know, the Father knows best; and we may never know why He took her home before she had the chance to even take a breath. Know that you are desperately loved and held before the Father. Although I am unable to attend the service in Julia’s honor, know that I will be praying for you, with you in spirit, and wearing black and pink. Your letter was absolutely beautiful, and I just sat here and wept with you in your pain. I love you guys SOOO much and will continue to pray for the comfort of our Lord to walk with you through every moment of every day. May his hand be felt in yours. Much love and prayers!
Thank you so much Jim and Kim Rudolph! Kelli and I can not put into words how much we appreciate you both. The care you have provided us, during this time, has been simply amazing. Thank you for being there for us during this process and making it somewhat easier to endure. We are grateful for everything…with much love Mark and Kelli Howell.